Saturday, December 23, 2000, 12:00 a.m.


found out that Ami-chan lives in Jakarta ^0^ So cool... the first time I see an online, blogging otaku living here, although she's not Indonesian.. :)

I'm gotten Arief hooked on RK! Mwahahahahaa--! I'm so proud of myself.

Continued my new layout for ZS layout. Yes, I know it's very simple but I like it anyway so I'm gonna use it :)

I had a great day today! Met my senior classmates for a small reunion (I love you guys!). They always make me feel so much better about myself :) Which is why, I supposed, I enjoyed my senior year best because I wasn't so busy in committees and social class was so relaxing so I had time to actually get to know them and them me. My freshman class was also great, but I don't know... I like my senior class best, while some of my favourite people are actually from my freshman class. Also met the choir alumni at school for a nice chat although school has closed and no one was there! We just love our school so much, don't we? ^^ We're going to have a Christmas lunch tomorrowwww!! All the choir alumnis are having a great time at their respective university choir, except me who's not in any choir at all currently. So sad :( It's not because I don't want to, it's just because I'm too stupid ^^ Choir is my life, though... I don't know how I'll live without singing in a choir at all. But I've been doing so for the past 6 months so.. *shrug* Anyway hopefully I'll be able to join the church choir, which is, BTW, far far FAR better (although not as good as it can be) than the hall choir. I wouldn't want to be in a crappy choir anyway ^^

Perhaps God do have something else for me to do *shrug* (as in dance? >.< I hate being in dance BTW but I passed the audition :P) That's what I always think anyway.

oh yuck I'm turning gloomy again... better continue watching my CCS tapes ^^

Thursday, December 21, 2000, 11:49 p.m.


[[currently : munching on a gulali (sinful, unhealthy traditional local sweet snack) and drinking apple/orange juice ]]

Yahoo sucks! They listed ZS using the link directly to the main page at envy.nu *fuming* My tracker is located on my splash page and I'd really like to know how people got to my site and how many people are there -_- Am I supposed to get two trackers now? and what if I move my site again???!!! ARGH!!

Thursday, December 21, 2000, 11:15 p.m.


[[ currently listening to : Jars of Clay's 'Love Song for the Saviour' ]]

Turned out the sos1 people couldn't make it today so we'll be having our little reunion tomorrow at 11 then I have to rush to the choir practice at 2 >.< Almost every one of my batch alumni will come and join the practice. Aren't you jealous of us, daddy Tosh :P you're the only one not here. Mwahahahaha... but then again Babal has gone to Puncak for 2 weeks -_- Drob abis! You Basses are such a pain.... BTW, I have lots-lots-LOTS of new gossips heeheehee... this is why I like going home so much.

Anyway I had the whole day to myself... went out to the mall for a while to buy mangas. I am so hooked on Kyoko Hikawa. I'll buy anything she writes. I've been reading Kanata Kara 8 over and over again and... IZAKUUU!!! *hysterical* Damn, why is he getting more and more to die for? I want to make a Kanata Kara site, but I don't have the resources.. I don't even have a scanner :( I also watched several episodes of CCS today... Syaoran is so cute!! ^^ *thinks* I had an idea for a Syaoran/Tomoyo fic while watching it, you know..... ^^ (and thus creating emotional havoc on S/S fans, but it's perfectly, perfectly possible, IMO) But I don't write fanfics anymore these days. I also made a new layout for ZS but it's too simple and ordinary... :( I can't find a nice, usable pic to play around with.

Arief, so now you read my log everyday too? Hee hee hee, good good. I want to get treated to celebrate you getting into Dean's List as well!!! I absolutely demand it!!

J, where are you?

Thursday, December 21, 2000, 12:56 a.m.


ARGH! My hair is too short! >.< I love my hairstylist, really. He always does a great job but this time he cut it too short all because I told him the last time I cut my hair was in September on my mid-term break then he suspected it'll take me 4 months to come back and cut my hair with him again and it'll look like shapeless and horrible then so he decided to cut it shorter this time. And it is TOO short for me. But I reckon once it grows longer, it'll look nicer. It always did.

The hair dresser place I go to is quite a famous one. It's located at one of my favourite malls and it's err... rather expensive, but I don't mind. What I DO mind is the absolutely tacky tasteless decor of the place. They used to be located downstairs, it was small, plain and boringly decorated but I was ok with that. That was how most hairdresser places look like anyway. Then since they're getting more and more famous they moved up to a large space in the corner and gave it a decor that, I supposed, SHOULD look like Renaissance-inspired. Which it did, roughly... There's the steel decorated railings, thin rod skinny chairs, plastic fake vines, large framed pictures and mirrors, fake domed ceilings painted with butt-naked baby cherubs... but the colors, oh gods, is CITRUS LEMON yellow (which, on close inspection once you sit in your chair is actually LIME green) and tacky PEACH. Can't you imagine how it looked? >.< It had bright yellow-beam lamps and golden frames. It's so shockingly bright that it almost blinded me the first time I saw it. who the hell decorated this place?

I remember when last September my biggest urge the whole time when I was sitting to get my hair washed staring at that cherubs-painted domed ceiling was to change it into a super large pic of Yue, white and pale purple against black. Then I'd change the entire place into black, heavily inspired by X. Wouldn't it be so cool? ^_^x But then they'd lose their ridiculously rich, colourful, garishly-dressed married women (in Singaporean lingo, Tai-tais) and equally rich, spoiled teen girl brats (in Singapore, they'll be the Ah Lians, the rich version, of course) customers. I definitely don't fit into their usual market profile, so they have a tendency to treat me as someone who won't come back again. But I do come back. And I give great tips as well >.<

I wonder what's so great about baby cherubs... heck, they're not even cute -_- Ok so their naked butts are probably cute... I still prefer Yue's butt, what! (Kokuyou will also make a great pic up there on the ceiling... bet his butt is awesome too ^^ *drool*) Kara, I am NOT going to comment on hoonie's butt >.< Love the Christmas layout BTW!

Yin, I just realized you have a new layout for your log! ^0^ Err... I realized that I hadn't been refreshing my page everytime I looked at your log so I always saw the same old entries 0_0 or did you just uploaded everything on one particular day like Misanagi does?

Wednesday, December 20, 2000, 12:24 a.m.


[[ currently : at home in Jakarta! ]]

Ah, home..... :P The only good things here are :
1. my bestest, bestest, wackiest friends
2. maids (quite ordinary, I assure you)
3. chaffeur/driver (also quite ordinary)
4. my dog
5. my old high school & its choir

As for the not-so-good things :
1. 56 K lousy internet connection
2. pollution, dust, all that is unhealthy and unhygienic
3. irritating relatives

I *had* to applaud KLM, my airline today. They had a 10 minutes delay and STILL managed to arrive 5 minutes earlier than schedule. I rushed through the entire immigation and baggage-picking process only to find my mother was late >.< Then I couldn't get Icha on the phone and I didn't know where the hell the concert was and by the time Icha called me back, it was too late. How was it Mommy? Bet it was great... all those great Bach works.....

I went to a mall nearby for dinner with my parents and checked out all the new mangas. Love Hina and a bunch of other shounen mangas have just come out, not done by the monopolizing publisher so the quality was rather bad :P The book shop was closed by the time I finished my dinner so I checked out the mag vendors instead and on the 3rd vendor, I FOUND KANATA KARA 8! The vol 7 was, like, 4 years ago? I was in junior high then and the vol 8 just came out sometimes between Sept and now. Unbelievable. I had almost given up and bought the Jap versions, esp since vol 11 just came out last month. CCS 12 is still not out :P Myaah... I think there should be one or two nice shoujo mangas out... Oh I still yet to find Kanata Kara vol 3 & 4!

*stares a her VCR* My last few CCS episodes are in there...... gotta watch them ASAP!! *stares at a box of VCD* I bought them for Kay but I wanna watch it NOW as well!*stares at zs v2.01* I wanna make a new layout for it as well (though the prospect of doing everything all over again is terribly daunting... over 120 HTML pages to be edited!) *stares at the phone* I wanna phone my friends again! I've been talking to several friend nonstop & getting all the newest outrageous gossips until my throat hurt and I decided to go online. *stares at her volume of Sophie's World* I wanna continue reading it! *stares at her Inbox* I think I have to answer some e-mails too.... *yawn* I also want to go to bed...

okay so I'm a greedy girl.... ^_^x School starts at Jan 2 and my schedule is full for the entire SEMESTER. Can you imagine it!!! >.< I won't be able to do anything much besides school, committee work, school, committee work, school and committee work {repeat until fade}

J and Sarah, I'll answer your e-mails tomorrow OK?! Arief, congrats on the STRAIGHT As (give or take the + and -)! >.< And I can't believe that you studied as much (or less) as I did.. -_- Different brain capabilities I guess... Next sem : STRAIGHT A+! Me? Err... straight Bs? ^^x

3sos1, PS, Thursday noon! Choir alumni, Friday/Sat, choir practice at school + Christmas meal on Sat (courtesy of Sabs)! I miss having so much fun hehehe...

what to do now......

Tuesday, December 19, 2000, 03:10 a.m.


ARGH! I also found Long Vacation soundtrack songs!!!

Tuesday, December 19, 2000, 03:01 a.m.


I am feeling very very pissed at several people right now >.< *deep breath* So I'm entertaining myself with surfing the network neighbourhood until it got stuck at, where else, Temasek A's network. Must be all those anime watchers raiding a particular someone's computer ^_^x But anyway, I found the opening song of Buffy! I've always liked this song, it totally rocks... too bad it's only 50 secs. I should be getting to bed now......

Monday, December 18, 2000, 09:57 p.m.


call me weird, but I do enjoy doing everything on the last minute. like now, it's monday night, my flight is tomorrow at 4.50 pm and *takes a deep breath* I still have to pack, clean my room, do my laundry, buy Kay's music book, buy something for Tepie, buy some things for choir, call potential sponsors to check them out, buy some Jap drama VCD for Kay, distribute my Christmas cards, return books to the library, and dash to the club room to get the t-shirt design AND print it out ASAP, all before I go to the airport tomorrow. the rush, the rush, the rush.... ^_^x Don't you just love it?

Mommy, I got your Les Mis novel here but Vanessa never called me, so *shrug* no N64 cartridge and have you managed to get the ticket to the concert for me? PLEAAAAASSSSEEE? *pleading eyes* (if you do managed to get it, then it means I have to rush there straight from the airport :))

Kara, where the hell are you??? Surely you don't disappear just because of a faulty keyboard! Why, Jitou-san's keyboard has ants nesting in it and eating the insides away but he still types! :) Oh I was at my aunt's just now and I saw HOT's Outside Castle and I love the vid! Err.. I like their dance moves in the video, it looked so nice! Is it from their newest album BTW, I just called Kay to ask her what to get for Tepie and she told me Tepie and Sabs were looking for the newest HOT album... the red-haired guy hair style looks like Aya!! *glomp*

Daddy, how was the physics test?

Oh, someone in my block is watching RK ^_^x I think it's one of the guys upstairs in my wing because I was down at Felicia's room near the waterfall and I could hear it and the only windows facing the waterfall are my wing's. It's definitely from Kyoto Arc. Reckon I should pop myself there and say "hi, watching RK? wanna know what'll happen next? visit Zero Stance!" ^_^x then I stopped by Pei Ling's old room to find those Kamisama VCDs and this mean evil E block senior is staying there now and apparently I woke her up and she was behaving in the worst manner you can imagine.... >.< And I couldn't find them! Pei Ling has left to Perth pulak! Ack. I'll try to buy and bring back Love 2000 VCDs for Kay, coz she's just dying to see Takeshi Kaneshiro.

I'm very talkative today na? Never mind. I just feel like talking today. You know a few days ago I got this phone call in the middle of the night.

Guy : Hello, I'm so sorry to bother you. Is it okay?
Me : Err... I guess so... (note : I thought it might be something important)
Guy : I'm sorry if the connection is rather bad. I'm at a vessel, you see.
Me : HUH? *blur*
Guy : I mean, I'm on a ship, at sea. And I just happen to press any random number and I'm feeling rather down, you see, and I wonder whether you want to talk to me?
Me : *freaked* Err.... sorry... I don't think I can talk to you...... *totally freaked*
Guy : Oh, ok then, well, sorry to bother you.
Me : Yeah. *slam down the phone as fast as possible*

........... I think I've experienced a LOT of freaky experiences since I moved here. There was that mysterious guy lurking around, that i-dunno-who in the bathroom (I don't wanna talk about it since ppl have the tendency to treat me like a victim after they heard about it, but I'm not!!! I'm not even sure what happened), that mysterious hysterics this girl had, all sorts of freakish things happening! I'm beginning to feel paranoid and traumatized! Well, I am paranoid enough to begin with X_X

whoops Long Vacation started! gonna go watch :) TAKUYAAAA!!! *glomp* (I still think he looks damn antiquated in this series.....) La La La Love Song!! *humming along with it*

Monday, December 18, 2000, 12:47 p.m.


Tosh just sent me an e-mail to bash me about posting private conversation in public :P All the better to make people know what a sick freak of a father I have. He's talking to me now in ICQ... are you sure you want to continue this here when all messages are automatically archived for future defammation use, daddy-kun? ^_^x

Monday, December 18, 2000, 05:00 a.m.


it's 5 am and I just updated this page :) I don't know how this page look in a larger resolution and a higher color *horror look* I don't think I want to know *shudder* Ignorance is bliss! I can't help that my screen is only 800 x 600 and 24 bit. It's a small laptop, not a PC!!!!!! I know, I know, I should've bought a PC :P

ok, about the layout *ahem* I dunno... I just like the way Kazuma look like although it's too soon for me to decide whether I like him, REALLY like him, or not like him at all. I'm not even sure whether I like Kazuma/Tsubasa. As for purple, it was Arief's choice. I started making the layout right at the moment he walked in and opened the TV (and he's still watching the match now) He likes Fiorentina and Fio's color is purple, so there ya go, a purple Christmas layout! *oink!* I kinda like it :)

PS : Kazuma and Tsubasa are from KareKano, if you haven't known it yet :)

Monday, December 18, 2000, 01:43 a.m.


was looking at these old old icq message archive. Excerpts from a conversation with daddy Tosh :

Toto : you're pathetic!!! first you call me an idiot, now you want to watch escaflowne!!! make up your mind!!! please!!!

IceCream : errr... what does calling you an idiot has anything to do with escaflowne

Toto : well....nothing maybe!! maybe i said that cause i'm an idiot?? who knows....

IceCream : hey u figured out that the i**** means an idiot... thot you wouldn't figure tt out hahaha

Toto : hey!! i AM your father am i not??? i know everything in your mind!! i train you to call other people idiot!!!!

IceCream : ooohhh.... really? *trying hard to remember exactly WHEN you taught me* ya udah pergi sono syuuuhhh i'm reading a page on tarot cards

Toto : HEH??? well...whatever!! you were already this weird when you were born anyway ^_^ see you!!!

IceCream : heh......... i'm weird coz i have weird parents :p

Toto : hey!! i'm back!! and have to go again pretty soon ^_^ why don't you send me that esca soundtrack???

IceCream : heh it's my friend's! but i'll buy you one if you want..... ^_^x but you have to come here and get it yourself

Toto : what?????????? is that how family suppose to be?????

IceCream : yes that's how family should be! they should visit their children often!!!

Toto : and no!!! a family should send each other greetings!!!!! and i did visit you!! only you were not available at that precious time ^_^

IceCream : hah! It was YOUR fault!

IceCream : AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!

Toto : AAAAAAAAAAAA???? what happen???

IceCream : Just wanna yell

Toto : lucu!!! just wanna yell!! are you having your monthly procedure again????

IceCream : bweh.... how many times in a month do i have to suffer!? :P

Toto : eeh???? are you sure this is the right time to talk???? ^_^ (i am pretty scared now)

IceCream : yes it definitely IS!!!!!!!!!!! who else can I torture except you (although it's thru the virtual world.. better than not)

Toto : LUC!!!!!! then i really think now is the best time to leave!!!!!!!

IceCream : NOOOOO!!! if you leave now I swear you won't see another day!!!!!! errrr.... gee.... i don't usually go homocidal.... hmm.....

Toto : are you okay!!! should i give you my psychiatrist number????

IceCream : errr.... YOU have a PSYCHIATRIST? now I'm scared..... *eyes Toto suspiciously*

Toto : well... i do sometimes have a suicidal tendencies!!!! blood everywhere!!!!

IceCream : gee.... then you'll love X! *grin* the images are so cool man...feathers, chains, blood, bloody cute guy... here I'll send you one of my favourites!

Toto : NO NOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NOT THAT BLOODY GAY COMICS!!!!@! NOOOOOOOOOOOOO

IceCream : it's a very good manga!!!!!! the artwork is fantastic!!!!

Toto : janey!! i have to go now!!!! ^_^ see you soon perhaps!!!! and do work out on your monthly thing!!!!!! ^_^

IceCream : WHAT monthly thingy???!!!

Toto : you know!!!!!!!!!!! something!!!1 ^_^

IceCream : WHATTT??? There's nothing!!

Toto : i know your secret!!! i know your secret!!! hiakakakkakkaaa

IceCream : -_- now YOU sound homicidal

Toto : ^_^ kidding!! just to make my daughter frustrated!! you should try it sometimes!! it's kinda fun to make your children frustrated

IceCream : nah, i;m sure it's more fun to frustrate your father

IceCream : ok go now! I don't need you!

Toto : ^_^ see you all of a sudden grumpy daughter

IceCream : I met YOU... my mood turned bad all of a sudden

Toto : HEY!!! SAY GOOD THINGS TO YOUR OLD MAN!!!!!

IceCream : NO WAY YOU UGLY IDIOT OLD MAN!

Toto : that's it!!! i condemn you to be a stone!!!!!! you can say hi to malin kundang along your way to be a stone!!!!

IceCream : No way. We have a different level. If I got turned into a stone, I'd be a diamond not a plain ugly common rock :P

Toto : ^_^ well enough of this!!! i got to go!! say bye to your old man!!!

IceCream : bye bye old man.... don't forget your walking stick!

Toto :not quite as i expected!! but that'll do FOR NOW!!!!

that's roughly how we converse everyday........... -_- I hate you daddy *glomp daddy*

Monday, December 18, 2000, 12:06 a.m.


not much of an updating >.< I merely changed the splash page of ZS v2.01 It's supposed to be a Christmas layout but it's NOT your usual Christmas layout... you know, no tree, no presents, no signs of festivities.... quite solemn and religious actually >.< Especially with those Bible verses. *shrug* let's just say Christmas sermons have been really affecting me :)

I went out to buy Sabs' DDR 3rd mix CD X_X and it was so damn crowded in Bugis, I couldn't get a seat at lunch anywhere -_- I hate crowded shopping centers, I like to shop when there are very few people around. All that people just get on my nerves. I just wanted to scream in the middle of the square for everyone to shut up and go home. And especially since Indonesians have flocked here for holidays, as usual and there were tons of them everywhere I turned. And everyone knows how damn chirpy and rowdy most Indonesians are. If you hear a very loud noise of people talking in Orchard Road from a great distance, those people are most likely to be Indonesians. No, CONFIRMED they'd definitely be Indonesian. Oh damn I'm going to Orchard tomorrow -_- In holidays' time, it sure turned into an extension of Indonesia overnight..... thank god I'm going home in two days. Now, over-populated, crowded, polluted, busy Jakarta on holidays time, especially when it's Christmas, Idul Fitri AND New Year bunched together like this year, everyone sure has left abroad for holidays or gone back to their respective kampungs. It'll be so nice... empty roads, no traffic jams, less people but still heavily polluted nonethelessly :P

Think gonna watch some animes now....

Sunday, December 17, 2000, 01:01 p.m.


I'm supposed to join my aunt's family for lunch but I woke up at 12.30 ^^ I set my alarm clock for 10 am but when it rang, I just hit the button automatically and went back to sleep again..... -_- I should've gone to bed earlier last night since I've been feeling tired lately. But NO, I just had to continue playing with ZS upcoming splash page.

Updates on ZS today:
- Added those voting banners top Kenshin sites thingy... forgot about those and I checked the list and I haven't been getting any votes! ^_^x
- Added banners to the Links section for sites that I haven't got the banners yet previously. Took out the link for w.u.s.t since it's closing down. Added the link to Yin's DCN
- Added another ZS banner made by Misanagi. This time it's pink to go along with the layout. *glomps J* Thank you so much dearrrrrrr!!

I think I'll be updating again at dawn tonight, since Arief's going to come here and watch Italian Football League at 3.30 AM om his TV, which is in my room right now ^_^x When am I going to get a decent, normal sleep?

I'm going out to shop for some gifts to bring home and for church... it's the Christmas celebration today! :)

Saturday, December 16, 2000, 11:11 p.m.


[[currently listening to : CCS songs ]]

I am so sick of canned soup. I wonder why I keep buying and eating them.......... *pained groan*

I just found out from Gina's log that Sarah has the same birthday as me (Dec 4th)! Waii--! Why didn--

OHMYGOD!!!!!!!! I was typing up there and suddenly this scary pic popped up on my screen.. courtesy of this guy who said he'd send me something cute >.< Remind me not to accept files from a guy I barely know....... It gave me such a fright, damn it! and the program was still happily running, ready to give me another surprise until I happily terminated it and sent it to the bin >.< Oh my god I was so surprised....... I'm alone in a dark room in an empty wing, for crying out loud!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lucky my volume wasn't turned on very loud. and lucky I didn't scream hysterically.

*takes a deep breath* ok so anyway I was going to say why Sarah and I didn't found out about our same birthdays sooner :) Anyway, no matter, next year, we'll do something together! (As in ???) Sarah also told me w.u.s.t, her Sakura/Syaoran shrine, is closing down :( But never mind, we still have her Embracing Solitude!

I just realized how late it is.... the Indonesian peeps are out prowling in Orchard or some club and I didn't join them because they asked me out the minute I arrived from town >.< Besides, I had to copy KareKano for Mommycha by hijacking Dendry's CD-R and computer hee hee hee... Hm, they did told me they're going to break their fast together at dawn although there are only 4 Muslims among us... -_- The rest of us are just going to join for the fun of it? Hee hee hee.... I still have to take a shower ^_^x

I was playing around with Dendry's computer and noticed how my layouts look like with his 1024 resolution and 32 bit and I guess it can't be helped that the colors look different >.< I can't make my layout and images using other people's computer, can I?

ZS splash page is going to change soon..... as soon as I made it and as soon as Misanagi tells me when :)

Saturday, December 16, 2000, 05:04 a.m.


[[ currently listening to : ALL my mp3 collections @_@ I don't even pay attention to what's on. It's the La La La Love song playing now BTW ]]

Zero Stance v2.01 needs to thank these people :
- Yin. For the support, of course! I love the Misao BLUE layout. I'll link your site on ZS soon. Gonna do some additions to ZS this weekend. Merry Christmas to you too, have fun! *hugz*
- J. Also, for the support! And the 4 AM e-mails ^_^x. That one page will also be up this weekend I hope *wink* Ganbatte on the layout for Thanatos & Divine!
- Mommycha. For reviewing the layout and keeps up with me ranting about bishounens and understanding my madness and otakuness AND being a willing party to get influence by me =D Luv ya mommy. (Will you be interested in a handbag, btw...)
- Syat. For checking out ZS v2.01 for me the first time it was uploaded and telling me where all the broken links and images were. I'll definitely make you another layout if you ask me to ^_^x
- As for everyone else, huge thanks for supporting ZS! :D Have a great holiday, minna-san!