Friday, December 1, 2000, 10:06 p.m.


[[ currently listening to : Utada Hikaru's First Love CD which I haven't heard in a long long loooooooong time ]]

HEYYY I went to the movies with Yil today! The movie kinda sucked tho, ain't it, Yil? We found that we were both so far behind in the current pop scene :

Me : *looking at a pop magazine cover* Who are these people?
Yil & me : *shaking the mag so the bonus thingy would move to reveal the headlines*
Me : "We are the winners?" What?? Who are these people?
Yil : I think they're people from different groups. This guy looks like Shane from Westlife.
Me : Oh yeah and this one looks like that guy from 911
Yil : 911 broke up already, I think it's that guy from S Club 7
Me : *blur* oh.
Yil : We used to know EVERYTHING and now we know nothing!
Me : *pointing at another mag* Is that the Backstreet Boys?

or....

*song playing at HMV*
Me : Is this Westlife? Or Backstreet Boys? Can't tell the difference....

Admittedly, I'm more blur than Yil hee hee hee....

urmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm *blink blink* ran out of things to say :P

Thursday, November 30, 2000, 06:09 p.m.


[[ currently listening to : various songs from the KareKano soundtrack... I particularly love "We Never Meet without Parting"? I think it's a translation of the real Jap title though >.< ]]

*quack!* I *think* my neighbour next door is trying to rival my Winamp volume with her Media Player's..... -_- But it's alright! I think there are lots of times I disturbed her sleep in the middle of the night with my battle-mode music. Besides, she just popped in a few hours ago and gave me a BLUE beaded bracelet she made herself. Isn't that nice of her? :) And it's RAININGGGGG, all the more to brighten my mood.

Ok so todayyyy I finished a section of v2.01, which I'm very proud of hahaha... then as I was working on this other section I realized something is missing so I e-mailed the person in relation to that section to check out some things first because I don't want to go back again after I finished everything and change it one by one XP

.......... Haven't got an idea on what to eat for my next meal.............. maybe I'll just skip it again :P .... my gastric is going to kill me one of these days.

Jessica, YOU. ARE. NOT. A. BAD. PERSON. Keep that in mind ^0^

Tosh, I'm not as genki as I usually am so I have no words of abuse for you for now. Consider yourself lucky.

pssmukies, -_- for God's sake can anyone TELL me what Elson's CORRECT e-mail address is instead of just telling me "subscribe Elson, subscribe Elson, subscribe Elson"???

Thursday, November 30, 2000, 12:41 a.m.


boy, do I feel bored..... -_- as usual, nothing to do, nothing I *want* to do... bleh... and I'm hungry too! I only ate a damn bloody cheesecake todayyyyy (and a few slices of raisin bread and lots of chocolate bars...oh err...) wonder if there's anyone who wants to go out for supper with me now. *sigh* ARRRIIEFFFFF if you were here, I'd sure drag you to go supper with me. wonder whether it's ok to walk alone all the way there.. whatever.... i'll stuff myself with more unhealthy food... XP I changed things a bit in ZS 2.01 today, but nothing much... i'm such a slacker :P

Wednesday, November 29, 2000, 12:43 a.m.


mou, it's raining again. ame ga daisuki! but i hate thunder -_- i seem to have nothing to talk about today.... I bought two neon fishes today :) I remember Tingzhe once said something about a fish store around Clementi Central there, at the HDB blocks, so I went there after doing my grocery shopping and found it. ^^ I have two fishes in my room now! I put it in a round wine glass and put it on top of my low shelf right next to my vase of Zennias so if I keep my door open, people can see both the flowers and the fishes :) BTW, the neo fishes are bluuuueeeeee....

Sarah, I love boukunenjin layout!!! KIREEEEIII!! ^^ I love blue.

I've been very short-tempered today because of my migraine that just wouldn't go away. Erk. Blasted migraine. Oh anyway, I still managed to transfer 30 ZS files to the new layout. *yawn*

Tuesday, November 28, 2000, 02:06 a.m.


Fuuu~~nnnn! Me likes blue!! ^^ *points to the right* that's the Glow card from CCS, BTW......... isn't she pretty? :)

Done by KFF postings just now, only 4 fics this week. Among them are Cammy's yaoi fic (which I don't read, sorry Cam!!) and flori-dono's songfic. I've always liked Flori's fics, they're simple but sweet. KFFDISC hasn't been very busy lately. Traffic's getting slow.

Again, ZS been sadly ignored. Tomorrow I promise I'll work on it, since I probably won't be going anywhere (except to help the anime club ppl make their costumes). Today I intended to stay in as well, but I was looking at myself in the mirror and decided that I *desperately* need a face scrub. After that trip to KL, my face's been err... not as smooth as it should be (all that heat and dirt and stress) so I suppose some treatment is in order! So I went out to City Hall. And ended up buying more things that I had planned to ^^ ARGHHH I've been spending money like water lately!!! Need to restrain myself.

Anyway, then I remembered James told me the VA Suntec's sale is on till the end of this month so I decided, why not, time for me to scoop some CCS shitajikis I've been eyeing but when I got there... IT'S ALREADY CLOSED!!!!! ~waaaahh!!

When I was walking around trying to find something to eat, I passed this restaurant which had no people in it, while the other restaurants next to it was full of people. And I saw the manager, a thin & frail old man, outside, putting up some paper about some menu they have on the window outside and I just felt so baaaaddd for him!! :( Then it got me thinking for a while about my future, because I've been talking about our future as BizAd graduates with Anne yesterday and so I wonder what if I'd work in some failing, unsuccessful business? Wouldn't it be so bleak? I mean, it's not as if you can change things on your own, or that easily. At least if I become a biologist like I had planned, all I need to do is study things and discover new things or whatever.

*sigh* I wonder WHY everyone thinks being in the BizAd faculty is such a good thing and that it is guaranteed, the graduates will have a bright, secure future. Everyone seems to think being a BizAd student is so grand. Ech. I don't want to be stuck doing the same things for the rest of my life in some detestable claustrophobic-inducing office building!!!!!!!

However, I believe everything happens for a cause, and that everything happens for our own good, and since I've accepted this, there really is no point to continually complain about it. I know, I know, I have a small faith, but I hope it will grow!

Anyway, I found a nice looking cheap vase to put in my room and went back to City Hall to this flower shop I saw earlier and bought two yellow/orange Zennias. I like the flower shop. It's very well-designed with vintage glass vases and pots and the flowers are beautiful. I told the lady that I needed the flowers to be put in a vase, but she still wrapped them up nicely and in the end, they still looked worthy enough to be a bouquet to be given to someone. Hnn... maybe I'll have my own flower shop one day ^^ I love flowers!! And despite my current passion for zoology, botany was my first passion since primary school and I'm better in it anyway. And I wouldn't mind having Omi or Aya or Ken or Youji or all four of them to work for me ^_^x

I think I'll take Plant Biotech next sem for my CFM. Should be fun.

Contrary to what I thought, it's not my immune system which will crash, it's my digestive system. The whole day I've been feeling as if someone has his hands wrapped around my gastric and is happily twisting it around in his hands -_- The toll of not eating right for the past few months is beginning to show. But it didn't stop me from shopping! Hee.. hee... it just made me have to stop walking once in a while.

Going to bed now!

Monday, November 27, 2000, 01:49 p.m.


//... afternoon rant //

I was reading Jen's log and yeah... see, this whole Boyzone Farm has crossed over to the realms of Japanese culture. Can we blame ourselves?

The Jap culture IS a growing trend in Asia nowadays (and US and Europe, you only need to see the anime fans online to know this). Perhaps all of us have always been easily hooked on what's the current trend now? ^^; Well let's see, back then it was Boyzone, and of course it was the Boyzone glory days back then, we saw them everywhere, and we got hooked. The same thing is happening now. Hey, who can blame me for getting hooked on TakuKimu when I see him everywhere (the TV : Long Vacation on Mon nights; Orchard Road : Levi's stores, music stores, book stores with his pic all over the mag covers; newspapers : news of him getting married and other all sorts of gossips.)

And yeah it's a surprise that after a long time with no contact, Cammy emerged as a huge otaku, particularly on "yaoiyaoiyaoi" ^^; And Yil, well Yil has always been into the whole pop scene in Singapore, be it Jap or Brit or Mandarin. But Wami has leaped to the realms of J-rock and K-music. She's been through this anime phase, haven't you, darling silver fox? ^_^x

I'm not completely lost to this whole Jap culture thing. Sure, it's a dominant thing in my life right now. Everyone knows that ^^ But hey, there are still some things that dominate mind that doesn't have anything to do with Jap culture at all... I am, after all, not Japanese. I have a culture of my own, the one that I've brought up in, and I like it the way it is. And no, I don't dress up like some Jap girls in magazines..... ^^

Monday, November 27, 2000, 03:21 a.m.


ok so I did say I'm tired and I want to go to bed. NOW. But I still have something I like to rant about.

I have no idea on what people here think sometimes... Well you see, I have a habit of smiling or saying hi to people I know. Even people who I've spoke to only once in my life. It's a habit I have that I'll automatically *do* something when I happen to cross paths with them.

But since moving here to S'pore, I realized that these people aren't like that at all. Like my orientatiop group councillor, for example, he was a very nice guy during orientation as our councillor. But now, everytime I happen to meet him, he'd deliberately look away so he doesn't have to smile back at me. And I get this kind of treatment from several other people here as well. And sometimes even if I smile at them and they see me, they just turn their head away and walk on. And I *know* that they know me well enough to know my name and my face.

Ouch.

I do not why that is. Maybe it's the culture? I do know all my Indonesian friends experience the same thing as well with other nationalities here, particularly Singaporeans. I mean, Indonesians ARE known for being friendly. *pause* Well, *koff, koff* albeit it can be superficial or just out of habit without really meaning so. I guess I do these things out of habit as well. It's a culture ingrained with me. (just as my habit of being "nice" when I really don't want to be so...)

I'm not being a racist or a extremist or whatever, it's just an observation. The good thing is, there are a few Singaporean people who are friendly as well. There are those who pass my room when the door's open and promptly say hi although I'm deep in my readings or whatever it is I'm doing and therefore don't see them passing. There are those who always spend some time to have a little chit chat to ask what I've been up to in the bathroom if we meet. But still, there are those who just do their business in the bathroom without saying a single word to me, unless I say something to them first.

Well, at least now you know, if I've spoken to you for just one time, you can be sure I'll always smile at you or say hi to you if we happen to meet (unless I forgot your face ^^). And don't you dare look away.

Monday, November 27, 2000, 02:49 a.m.


*yawn* I ended up sleeping at 7 AM yesterday. Or to be exact, this morning -_- This is all Syat's fault!!! I'm going to bed now because I need to get up early tomorrow morning *sigh* I'm very very very tired... this irregular sleeping hours I've been keeping is going to make my body crash soon. REAL soon. I just know it. I'm waiting for the moment to come.........

Anyway I basically slept the whole day, went to church, heard a very very good sermon today *points to the right*, had a nice Jap dinner with Carine (finally meeting her)and her friends, and worked on the KareKano translation. Translating is very difficult, you know... I ended up making a very very liberal translation because these things just don't make sense in English if I translate it directly. Whatever. Note to self : I need a complete Katakana dictionary and one of those repeated words and their meanings lists

So no, I haven't been working on ZS this weekend at all! HAHAHAHAHA!!!! Will have to make up for it tomorrow. Oh shit, I have a meeting at 9 pm tomorrow.. can I still watch Long Vacation at 11????? Meeting Peppie at 3 pm to find some music scores for our beloved pssmukie. And doing the regular BizComm work in the morning starting from 9 pm to get this guy who's always out from his office whenever I called... -_- Aaaahhh, just another regular boring and semi-busy day in my so-called holiday. I wanna go home and laze around and have a proper sleeping time and eat proper meals at the proper times! Today I only ate 6 pieces of chicken nuggets, a yakiniku set, and err... lots of those small chocolate snacks XP I need a healthy diet.....

So tired.... *yawn*

Sunday, November 26, 2000, 05:35 a.m.


ooh insomnia insomnia... shouldn't you be inspiring or something? well i did slapped myself with a latte this afternoon after Jap class. it's 5.30 AM and I'm still up, surfing people's websites, e-mailing people about their great web sites, signing guestbooks, joining fresh femininity. BTW I used to thought it's "feminity" then I realized it's "femininity".... @_@ It's a good thing I go to a late afternoon church service... so no need to get up early and I hate waking up early.

luckily Syat's still here with me since oohh... 6 hrs ago? *grin* She's having a headache over her log though ^^ I changed the WK pic into this Angel Sanctuary pic because I've been hooked on the artwork since Daphne brought the art book to the meeting yesterday and suggested Cedric to go to the Miyuki Cosplay as one of the angels -- I don't know the name. I don't think I'll read the manga though... I'm skittish enough with yaoi and yuri and now incest? Err.... no thanks, not for now.

J, we're getting more and more eerily synchronized... or we're just influencing each other heavily *sweatdrop* Well, that or the other.... hahaha... Karaaaaaa, *glomps* You never e-mail me back! :P your log is cute ^^ (I mean the guy lah!) oh yeah how can we ever forget our dearly beloved god-knows-how-many-tails-she-has silver-tailed towel-eating fox. I miss feeing you with my Boyzone Farm towels!

erk, why are there big ugly ants in my room?

Sunday, November 26, 2000, 12:05 a.m.


oh great... university's e-mail have gone crazy again. luckily I've averted all my mails to my hotmail account since a few days ago. Not working on ZS today because I'm not in the mood for that today. Been working on a KareKano translation. Yup, I'm working on translation a chapter that doesn't have a translation anywhere on the Net. So I might as well translate it myself. Consider it as part of learning Jap as well.

I seem to be feeling better now. Hm.. maybe it's not a flu after all.

I added a link to my dream sequence site up there *points up* It's actually a private site.. but I checked it out and turned some things into private entries and I don't mind letting people see the rest. It's actually random writings... things that just pop into my mind whenever they feel like it. Some are actually scribblings I later made into a fic(s). I particularly made "Want You to Love Me", a GW fic, there... there are about 3 or 4 entries in relation to that fic, they can be read as separate POV vignettes.

Saturday, November 25, 2000, 07:38 p.m.


J, oooh finally your log for the week is up but I still wish I can read a new log everyday... how 'bout it? how 'bout it???!!!! Come on!!! ^^ Urm, and you never cease to amaze me.. I think we've unconsciously synchronized things -_- I LOVE DUVET! If you've seen my previous logs, you'll see I'm almost always listening to that song ^^ Or did I influence you somewhat? ^^ And yeah, I haven't received a reply from Yin either... Syat, you're welcome, dear. No problemo! Oh and your log site made my Netscape crashed just now because of the Java scripts. But it's OK! I like the pic!

Just got back from Jap class and hanging out at Far East Square. Norlizah showed today's Today with the news TakuKimu getting married. Yil already told me that Shizuka Kudou was pregnant yesterday and my sensei, who is a big big BIG fan of TakuKimu (sorry Jen, I still prefer to call him this way!), was completely heart broken hahaa.. she started saying she wanted to get married as well and mentioned about how great it is to have a boyfriend.. (she's single and just broke up several months ago) She's a very funny great person. Your typical young bubbly genki Jap woman. Glad I have her as my teacher.

I think I'm coming down with a flu again.... isn't that just so typical of me. Just one day out of ordinary sleeping schedule (oh yeah and the insomnias) and my body's ready to crash anytime soon. Better take a shower first and eat dinner, just in case it decides to crash soon.

I want to learn yoga..... looks fun....

Saturday, November 25, 2000, 12:41 a.m.


[[ currently listening to : Toshinobu Kobuta's La La La Love Song... the influence of watching Long Vacation never failingly every Monday x_x ]]

oh my god the b-o-r-e-d-o-m is unbearableeeee... hyaaahhh... I'm too bored to do anything.... argh.. so not fun.

anyway did 15 pages of v2.01 today. redo a couple of things too.... I think I'm going to redo some stuff all over again. If I'm not too lazy to do it. Can somebody please feed me with Kinder Buenos so I can work faster? I even munch on Apollo wafers now... 80 cents for a pack of 12. Cheap, good stuff. Just as I like it. Oh and e-mails are fine as well... how come nobody ever e-mail me these days... there used to be lots of people e-mailing me bothering me with nonsense stuff... EEK! Was I that cruel?

Just a general rant... I LOVE KAREKANO! And Takashi is becoming my favourite now... hmmm... *speculating gleam*

must think of something to do................. >.< err.. read Kafka? @_@

Friday, November 24, 2000, 07:52 p.m.


[[ currently listening to :: Vision of Escaflowne the Movie soundtrack -- have I mentioned how much I love the entire Esca soundtrack? The Movie OST is even better with the compact, high-tensioned and eerie songs; rather than the slow, waffy songs in the original series OST ]]

anyway meeting today was fuuuunnnnn.... people are getting ready for that Cosplay. Don't think I'll be going with a costume.... see whether I can find something easy enough to make in a week's time. Singaporeans out there, come to the Miyuki Cosplay at Suntec on Dec 2! More details, visit the NUS Anime Club, particularly the Message Board.

I desperately need a nap but had too much on my mind right now to fall asleep so I got up and went to look for Shin but she's not in. *sigh* Lately I can't manage to sleep 6 hrs a day... I'd surely crash around night time. Dunno how I survived high school with 5 hrs of sleep everyday without any nap time! And I was even busier then!

Oh well since I'll most likely won't be able to catch some sleep before I settle all my things... I better get started working on ZS now.

Friday, November 24, 2000, 12:05 a.m.


[[ currently listening to : Tenshi no Yubikiri, KareKano's OP -- don't I ever change my playlist on my winamp???!!! ]]

I. AM. SO. BORED. I have nothing to do and even though I can think of something to do(ie, like working more on v2.01 or writing several long-overdue e-mails), I just don't feel like doing anything. *sigh* Hate feeling this way. B-O-R-E-D. Oh and I have to sell 7 more packs of ugly Christmas cards. *double sigh*

Oh what the hell, I might just go to bed since I have an early morning meeting tomorrow in ORCHARD. Takes me one hour to get there, more or less. *triple sigh* Gonna meet Carine too since she finish her A's tomorrow. It's been like what... 7 years since we last met?

In case you're wondering, yeah I *have* worked on ZS. 10 pages today. Told ya I'll do 10 pages per day. I closed down ZS v2.0 coz it's getting crappier and crappier the more I see it. I just can't stand it!!!

ADDENDUM :Jen, I love your log ^^ (told ya that olredi!) I like reading ppl's log hehehe.... and hey look, Dayang's hooked! Yeow, this is so cool. Quacky dear, more more more! Oh sure, keep blaming me of giving you a new toy!!! BTW, Syat told me you're a babe now *wink* I'm sorry we couldn't meet last week when I was there!

Alright, alright, I'm turning off my laptop before it blows up.

Thursday, November 23, 2000, 08:26 p.m.


[[ currently listening to : Boa's Duvet (again!) ]]

It's 30 minutes to BizComm meeting and I've got everything I have to do covered. I spoke to several members already and all of them were feeling rather nervous because so far we haven't succeeded much. So sad!!!! We feel like we're going to die on the meeting later. EEK. Ooh the anxiety... XP

I can't get this KareKano scene out of my head. When Arima first met Yukino's family? Her mother screamed "OTOKOOO!!!" to the whole house and everyone came running down like crazy. It was SO funny. Of course, if it were me, I'd be so dead embarassed I wouldn't show my face to Arima again. Ever.

Another thing is that anime songs are so good in putting puns in their lyrics. Like CCS Catch You Catch Me, there's a line that goes "So nice to meet you, good to see you, kitto." Of course, when you hear that you thought it was "good to see Yukito". Pie initially thought so as well. Then what else... oh this one is good; KareKano's opening theme has this line "you may dream" which actually sounds "yume dream", yume in Jap meaning dream. I think the wordplay is cool. ^^ And just now I was listening to Esca's Mystic Eyes and well... even the title says it... the lyrics are just full with words like "eyes" and "hitomi" and well for those who don't know, Hitomi (meaning roughly...err.. 'eyes' lah! 'pupil' sounds so medical) is the name of Esca's main character.

BTW, I find myself liking Mystic Eyes more and more although I initially dismissed it as a crappy song. Then I listened REAL carefully and I really like the voice which sang it. I searched around for info, and well guess what, it's Tomokazu Seki!! The seiyuu for Touya in CCS and Ken in WK and of course, Van in Esca *drool* All my favourite bishounens!!! I'm a big fan of his now.... ^^

still mentally preparing for meeting..............

Thursday, November 23, 2000, 02:51 p.m.


I'm probably the only person who makes a log entry twice a day. Sometimes more. Erk. Anyway been checking out people's log.. glad to see everyone's getting the hang of HTML! Syat! your log looks great, dear ^^ And I enjoy reading it as well... keep it going! I'm checking it everyday now. Oh err.. a dream with Chris & Lew in it? and a 5000 bucks pula? oh wow... LOL ^_^x

Cammy, glad to see you on KFFDISC. Keep the fics coming! oh and undernet's #boyzone should be as dead as usual... Jen borrowed Kafka todayyyy... it looks so chim! J, not updating your blog lately? I don't know what's up with you now but maybe that's because I've yet to send you an e-mail ^^

Aiyiyi... I have a bad feeling for BizComm meeting tonite... Gonna cheer myself up with rewatching KareKano's early episodes! ^^ I'm trying not to read the subtitles now.

Wednesday, November 22, 2000, 11:48 p.m.


[[ currently watching : TCS 5, after watching Popular.. there's a Bardot video on TV now.... no comment on them except I always enjoy a nice pop song hehehe..]]

It's been raining the whole day! Not that I'm complaining.. I love rain. Cold weather cools my temper hehehe.. but I hate thunder. I live in constant fear when there are thunders because I don't want my laptop to be struck by lightning like Che Kang's a few months ago.

I managed to do some of the stuff I wanted to do today... particularly made those birthday cards which I'm quite proud of ^^ Too bad most of the Biz Comm members weren't around when I went to their rooms to ask for their autographs.

Didn't feel like shopping groceries today or cook dinner so Henny and I went to Fong Seng in the middle of the rain and experienced my first flood in S'pore. Ech. It lasted just a few minutes though. Hahaha...

Anyway, ZS v2.01 gets 11 new pages today. Yay. I intend to keep making 10 pages a day from now on so I can finish it in time.

Jen, hopefully the e-mail helps! Good luck with your paper and thanks for recommending me to read Kafka. I'll get it from the library tomorrow ^^ J & Sarah, eek, I'm behind in my e-mails... *sweatdrop* Will do it tomorrow.

Oh and minna... somebody just nominated my fic Die Blumen for the RK Reader's Choice Award a few days ago. Thanks! I think I know you right? I know for sure the nominator is a fellow Indonesian I once spoke to over e-mails. Now, would someone care to second that nomination? :)

Wednesday, November 22, 2000, 02:26 p.m.


[[ currently listening to : Duvet (Lain's OP) by Boa, the acoustic version.. lurve this song!! ]]

OK meeting was cancelled until further notice so I changed the layout and archived the old entries. How'd you like the Weiss Kreuz pic, Cammy dear? I love this pic very much :)

Well ok now off to work on ZS!